But I have actually made a lot of progress, especially compared to when I started. And yesterday was a perfect example of how nice it is when it works the way you would like it to work all of the time.
Here's the basic breakdown of my day:
- Got up
- Spent an hour or so just thinking, relaxing, reading, cuddling kitties
- Fixed and ate some breakfast, with a cup of tea
- Watched "CBS Sunday Morning," because I wanted to see the segment about Louise Penny
- Check e-mail, read blogs
- Cleaned up my breakfast stuff, and put on my sloppy clothes to do some garden work/sweeping up outside
- Put some flowers into flowerpots
- Put new topsoil on the planting areas in the front of the house and in the garden
- Put decorative rocks in both places
- Watered everything
- Took a shower
- Read a while
- Knitted a while
- Read some more
- Walked to the market for a few things
- Prepped a quiche for dinner and put it in the oven to cook
- Read some more
- Ate dinner
- Cleaned up dishes so The Tim could wash them
- Changed clothes to go to a concert
- Went to concert
- Came home, washed up, and put on my pjs
- Went to bed
OK, so that is likely more detailed than you cared or needed to know. But I did in fact do all of those things. And the list is kind of long. Even so, each thing was done with actual mindfulness. I managed to do each thing on its own, not multitasking, not rushing through one thing because I knew others were coming up, or that I wanted to specifically accomplish x number of things in the day. Granted, the things highlighted in blue were slightly more easily done since The Tim took a really long nap in the afternoon, so I was completely left to my own devices, but I could have done them as well if he'd been around (he's just a "let's do so-and-so RIGHT now" kind of person).
I enjoyed my day. The weather was really nice, so being outside in the garden was extra enjoyable. But as I was reviewing the day in my head as I was getting ready for bed, I realized that I had been present during the whole day - the time when I was relaxing, reading, knitting, cooking, I was aware that not only was I doing it, but it was the only thing I was doing at the time. And it felt nice, calming, and nothing felt like a chore.
Maybe it's was the planets being properly aligned, because I have no delusions that this will be my life now. But I have to tell you, it was really GOOD to experience just being. And an even better feeling not to worry that I wasn't also doing ten other things, or planning all the things that should happen next.
In a word, it was lovely. :-)
(Lake Gerar, Rehoboth Beach, Delaware Photo by my niece Amanda)
*The concert, for those of you wondering (and I know I would be), was James Taylor and Bonnie Raitt, and it was worth every single cent we'd paid for the tickets!